I am free for the night! Yay!

I again want to apologize to everyone for the scare. And thanks again to everyone who visited or brought things, or whatever. I love all of you so much, and you should be more than aware that I would never do anything to hurt you.
Lovelovelovelovelooooooooooove<3

Holy Shit! A Video Blog!

I thought it would be fun. I'm a noob, I know.

I'm in a weird place right now. I don't know why, or what it really is. All I know is that it's weird.
Therefore, I apologize if it seems like I'm disinterested, or you feel like I don't want to talk to you, or whatever. It's not the case. I'm just trying to figure shit out.

That wasn't me, that was alter-ego.

This is going to be in point form, because I'm currently not in the mood to get my act together and remember how to write full sentences and paragraphs.
1. I have never blacked out so badly in my life. Holy eff. Though it was hilarious.
2. There is now clear evidence that whether or not I'm sober, I will always listen to Ben. Always. Don't ask me why.
3. Even though I don't remember doing it, my drunk texting is absolutely flawless. I was impressed.
4. I keep thinking that I did something exponentially stupid and embarrassing, and it was so exponentially stupid and embarrassing that no one wants to mention it. It keeps bothering me, though I've been assured several times that I didn't. Sigh. Whatevs.

I'll be in your ear, increase the fear

Sometimes, I wonder if we ever actually really know our friends. I always seem to think I know someone, and then they do something that I would find completely out of character, and then re-evaluate how I see them. It's not like those out of character things are ever bad, it's just not what you'd expect from them, so it throws you off. I don't know, I just wonder if we actually know anyone, and if anyone actually knows us. I know there are some traits or hobbies or past events that I have that some people would find out of character for me.
It's just a thought.

Other news, I have to go to Tribal Expression tomorrow to get a new labret piercing, since I lost the ball off the end of it. Which is okay, because I was due for a stem shortening anyway. But I wasn't planning on doing it before Christmas seeing as, well, I'm broke. I don't think I can afford to get a new one, which is a really big problem. I'm having a hard time with it now as it is.

Sigh. Today was just an odd day.

UPDATE: HOLY SHIT, I PASSED SOCIOLOGY!!!

I seem to think I think I gotta little situation

You know how everyone has their own special place? One where they can completely be themselves, and not have to worry about what they say or do? Maybe it's a blog, a diary, a best friend, a forum, someone you randomly met online, the library, a park, whatever. It's just somewhere where you're incredibly comfortable and okay with everything you say and do.
I want to go to my place. But I'm afraid.
No one should be afraid of their place. It's THEIR place. So why am I afraid of mine?

Who gets to determine when the old ends, and the new begins?

I really like the look of the snow outside all over everything. In fact, it's probably actually one of the very few sights I love and find incredibly beautiful. I just wish the cold didn't have to come with it so I could enjoy it.
I love sitting by the fire, all curled up, with hot chocolate, and just staring at it and feeling the warmth in the room.
I love making people happy. Especially people who I really care about. Especially when they're having a hard time and need to be lifted up. No one deserves to deal with bad shit, so why can't more people help make it better?
I love the spirit of Christmas, and the scents and flavours and joys associated around it. It's just pleasant, and relaxing, and exciting.
I love seeing friends I haven't seen in what feels like decades. The reaction they give you gives you an idea of how much they missed you - and whether or not it matches. It was just so great to see the matching reactions I needed.

Generally, I'm in a bit of a pensive mood. I'm not entirely clear on my thoughts, so I'm just expressing the positive ones.
Back to Grey's.
(PS: updated the quotes =) )