Wednesday, December 31, 2008

I am free for the night! Yay!

I again want to apologize to everyone for the scare. And thanks again to everyone who visited or brought things, or whatever. I love all of you so much, and you should be more than aware that I would never do anything to hurt you.
Lovelovelovelovelooooooooooove<3

Monday, December 22, 2008

Holy Shit! A Video Blog!


I thought it would be fun. I'm a noob, I know.
I'm in a weird place right now. I don't know why, or what it really is. All I know is that it's weird.
Therefore, I apologize if it seems like I'm disinterested, or you feel like I don't want to talk to you, or whatever. It's not the case. I'm just trying to figure shit out.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

That wasn't me, that was alter-ego.

This is going to be in point form, because I'm currently not in the mood to get my act together and remember how to write full sentences and paragraphs.
1. I have never blacked out so badly in my life. Holy eff. Though it was hilarious.
2. There is now clear evidence that whether or not I'm sober, I will always listen to Ben. Always. Don't ask me why.
3. Even though I don't remember doing it, my drunk texting is absolutely flawless. I was impressed.
4. I keep thinking that I did something exponentially stupid and embarrassing, and it was so exponentially stupid and embarrassing that no one wants to mention it. It keeps bothering me, though I've been assured several times that I didn't. Sigh. Whatevs.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

I'll be in your ear, increase the fear

Sometimes, I wonder if we ever actually really know our friends. I always seem to think I know someone, and then they do something that I would find completely out of character, and then re-evaluate how I see them. It's not like those out of character things are ever bad, it's just not what you'd expect from them, so it throws you off. I don't know, I just wonder if we actually know anyone, and if anyone actually knows us. I know there are some traits or hobbies or past events that I have that some people would find out of character for me.
It's just a thought.

Other news, I have to go to Tribal Expression tomorrow to get a new labret piercing, since I lost the ball off the end of it. Which is okay, because I was due for a stem shortening anyway. But I wasn't planning on doing it before Christmas seeing as, well, I'm broke. I don't think I can afford to get a new one, which is a really big problem. I'm having a hard time with it now as it is.

Sigh. Today was just an odd day.

UPDATE: HOLY SHIT, I PASSED SOCIOLOGY!!!

I seem to think I think I gotta little situation

You know how everyone has their own special place? One where they can completely be themselves, and not have to worry about what they say or do? Maybe it's a blog, a diary, a best friend, a forum, someone you randomly met online, the library, a park, whatever. It's just somewhere where you're incredibly comfortable and okay with everything you say and do.
I want to go to my place. But I'm afraid.
No one should be afraid of their place. It's THEIR place. So why am I afraid of mine?

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Who gets to determine when the old ends, and the new begins?

I really like the look of the snow outside all over everything. In fact, it's probably actually one of the very few sights I love and find incredibly beautiful. I just wish the cold didn't have to come with it so I could enjoy it.
I love sitting by the fire, all curled up, with hot chocolate, and just staring at it and feeling the warmth in the room.
I love making people happy. Especially people who I really care about. Especially when they're having a hard time and need to be lifted up. No one deserves to deal with bad shit, so why can't more people help make it better?
I love the spirit of Christmas, and the scents and flavours and joys associated around it. It's just pleasant, and relaxing, and exciting.
I love seeing friends I haven't seen in what feels like decades. The reaction they give you gives you an idea of how much they missed you - and whether or not it matches. It was just so great to see the matching reactions I needed.

Generally, I'm in a bit of a pensive mood. I'm not entirely clear on my thoughts, so I'm just expressing the positive ones.
Back to Grey's.
(PS: updated the quotes =) )

Monday, December 15, 2008

Grey's really has the best lines.

"The truth is, Derek, I love you...in a really, really big 'pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you' love you. So pick me, choose me, love me." -Meredith Grey
"Trust me, Nicole, you don't want to cheat your first kiss. When you find that right person, the first kiss is everything" -Alex Kerav
"Life's too short for you to give in, Irish. So fight. Fight for what's yours" -Sophie

Sunday, December 14, 2008

I've thrown away many things that could've been much more

You, make me laugh really hard.
And you, well, I really miss you. Like you have no idea.
And you...sigh. I have so much to say.

That is all. Oh, I'm in Calgary. I guess that's a good tidbit of info.
And I made brownies.
That's about it.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Monday, December 8, 2008

Well, maybe just a half a drink more.

There is snow on the ground. I'm listening to Christmas music, and cutting out paper snowflakes, and about to open my advent calendar for the day.
Rashida is 99% most likely moving out of our suite next semester.
My aunt and I are going out for dinner Friday night.
Mesa and I are about to watch the newest episode of Gossip Girl.
I'm done Eclipse, and now on to Breaking Dawn. As well as season two of Grey's.
I'm done sociology forever.
Yipee! =)

(This picture is from Lake Louise from Valentine's Day, but whatever. It's the nicest snow picture I could find.)

Friday, December 5, 2008

Nos chemins vont se recroiser

Twilight was actually really awesome. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. If you don't compare it to the book, anyway. Compared to the book, it's terrible. But my lord, Robert Pattinson is...he just melts my heart. I love him. He's my one exception to the no-marriage thing =)

I'm now going to organize my iPod, since I just added over 1000 new songs to it. Thanks, Tyler! =)

I'm generally content. Let's just hope this keeps up.

PS, please stop being so noisy. It irritates me.

Coming back for even more of exactly the same.

That was really nice. Honestly. I want this to work this way, and I think now it can.
I've missed having you around. Welcome back =)

Thursday, December 4, 2008

I'd really like to live beside you, baby

MASS REALIZATION. It's December. In a few short weeks, do you know what time it'll be? I doubt it, so I'm going to tell you.
It'll be the time of the year where we make the Top 10 Best/Worst Albums, Movies, Moments, etc. of 2008.
I'M SO EXCITED. I love this time of year. It gives me something to do, and makes me feel accomplished, in a sense.

I'm falling apart in your hands again

I've decided that I don't think I'm going to get married. I don't really know what sparked this, but I don't know, it just seems like a comforting thing. Don't ask me why. I just don't have the desire to get married anymore. My perfect wedding dream is shot anyway, so it's not like it would make a difference.
I think about the weirdest things sometimes.

Lighter note: I've succumbed to Twitter. I don't know why. But I have. Look me up, I suppose. Though I'm already following most of you: tinorangeginger.
And the semester is officially over for me. All that's left is exams, which I'm royally screwed for.
I can't believe how fast this semester went. It's crazy...and leaving me speechless, actually.
I guess time really does pass. Even for me.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Stuck between the burning light and the dusty shade

I thought of two more reasons why you should make the effort to come tonight! I have these obnoxiously bright flag stickies in my book that you can see from the upper deck. And I'm sick AND faking soprano. Probably the funniest thing ever. Though Sean Connery is still the best reason.

It's still snowing. S, M, and I are all sick. It's ridiculous.

I finished Twilight last night. I loved it. But New Moon is depressing. I just need to trudge through it. Which I'm going to do now.

Monday, December 1, 2008

You found all the words you need, well, I found nothing

EDIT: I REMEMBERED WHAT I HAD TO SAY! LOOK AT THE BOTTOM! =)
It's snowing. Which, in Lethbridge, means wet snow. But it's snowing none the less.


The woman next to me in choir today was wearing combat boots. I was thoroughly impressed, because she's about my mom's age. It was cool.

I think it's one of the most depressing things to be performing, and looking out into a crowd where you don't recognize a single face. For cereal, it sucks. So, if you are in Lethbridge tomorrow, and not doing anything at 8pm, come to the Southminister church (4th Ave, just a right off Stafford =) ), and watch a lovely performance. It's actually a good one. I can give you reasons why you should come too.
1. It would make me incredibly happy.
2. I will owe you something afterward. You pick, I'll do it (with some exceptions)
3. The woman who stands in front of me looks like a frog. And she acts like one too. It's hilarious.
4. You have nothing better to do =P
And, if none of those are good enough for you, I have saved the best for last. The number five reason why you should come is because our solo bassist looks AND sounds like Sean Connery. Not even kidding. And if that isn't good enough to sell you to come, I don't know what is. It's like seeing Sean Connery himself perform in my choir.
See how desperate I am? Pretty please, come? Someone?

I had something else I was going to say, but the thought has escaped me. Oh well. It'll come to me at some point.
EDIT: What I was going to say was that another good thing about today is that it's the first of December, which means that it's the first day of advent calendars!! Yay!!

Like it or not, even though she's a lot like me, we're not the same

Today hasn't been so bad. And now that I say that, I probably jinxed it. But I was asleep by 1, went to spanish, got let out early, had a nap, got dressed and looked 'look down' good, it was 15 degrees out, sociology went by fast, got free pizza for dinner, and just chilled otherwise. It was nice.
Now it's almost time for choir. Gross. Well, faking soprano will at least be an adventure once again. It's actually kind of funny how dumb I am sometimes.

I need to figure out how to be smart enough to save 6000$ in the next year. Plus money for school. Sigh. Maybe I'll just need to whore myself out on a street corner after all, and sell drugs while I'm at it. A two for one kind of deal. Haaa. But seriously, I need to find a way to make myself save that much money. You know, once I get a job. We'll see, I guess. I am open to suggestions.

Just so you know, I'm still here. If you ever want to talk, or just hang out, or whatever. I'm here.