Change the world.

This is going to be super brief, so I don't feel the need to find an image.

Today I saw Ammdrey. She was with Sparks at Chapters. I haven't seen her in two or three years.

Life has consistently be giving me blast from the past surprises.

Notorious

I'm wondering if this feeling of indifference is a good or bad thing. There are advantages to it, simply due to the fact that I'm obviously not over-thinking it. But at the same time, I feel like I should have some sort of emotion towards this. I'm not entirely sure. I just want to mention that. I don't really have anything of relative importance to say.

grade nine revival.

The Guy Manual
By Chloë and Rae
1. If you want to have your heart broken, give it to a guy.
2. Guys don't get hints. You can drop them for four frickin' months and they still won't get them.
3. Guys are either unturnonable or they're horny. Watch out for those guys.
4. Guys lie
5. Guys are just plain retarded
6. They're commitment-phobic.
7. You aren't most important thing in their life. They may say that you are, but you're not.
8. They don't love you. They love that they may get lucky with you.
9. They're not worth crying over
10. Can't live with them, can't live without them.
11. They get distracted very, very easily. Mostly by other women. Get used to it.
12. They'll never deserve you.
13. Do not ask them if they think that other girl over there is prettier than you. They'll say no when they normally mean yes.
14. Don't ask them if they'll ever break up with you. They lie[as mentioned in number 4]
15. Forever means nothing.

speaking of blast from the past...

That morse code phase I went through totally helped this.

On with what I really want to say. After all the reflective thinking and realizations last night, I got a real blast from the past this morning. I was running late for work, and I ran into the store, walked into the back room, and there, standing right in front of me was Cam. It was the best thing to happen to me all weekend. He was there to receive for us for the day. Cam was one of my favourite people who worked at HMV, and he quit back in April. I had the biggest crush on him because he's so amazing. He gave his two weeks notice, left for Seattle, came back and worked the week that we were in New York, so I never got to see him again. It just made me so happy that I gave him a hug. I barely spent any time working today, because I wanted to catch up with him. He might come back! I'm so excited. I miss him. We dressed him up as a robot. Giving him a hug in that was awkward, but still super awesome. It made me think of a lot of things, to be perfectly honest.

I don't really know where I was going with that. It was just funny that I was thinking about things in my life from before and then he showed up.

I still don't even know you.

Sometimes, I forget that all of this is really happening. That things are exactly the way the used to be. But the odd thing about it being like old times, is that they're all old times from different parts of my life. It's like grade nine and ten and eleven and last month all wrapped into one.
I don't even realize it's happening until I snap back into it. I'm not hoping or wishing things will change. It just feels like it hasn't, and at times, I've honestly convinced myself of that. For example, I was driving down your street today, and as I passed your house, I got a funny feeling inside. I wasn't really conscious of the fact that I was passing your house until that exact moment. I wanted to come and see you. It was something I would've have done before, and should be doing now. Later on, I passed her house. The same feeling swept over me. It was odd, since we haven't talked in a really long time. I just wanted to see her.

I went out for coffee with Jessica Fremont post-rehearsal. It was actually quite refreshing. We talked about some things, mostly what was going on in her life, and it made me realize a lot about myself, and this year, and how similar Jessica and I really are. Grade twelve has started a bunch of realizations for both us, and I think it's more or less a good thing. She's really happy, and I'm really happy that she's really happy. These sort of events make me really happy as well.

Today was generally just an interesting day. I keep forgetting I'm wearing stage makeup though, which is a problem. I'm getting foundation on everything.

I don't really have anything else worth saying, so I'll just end it on that last note.

I wish humans could hibernate.

Then I could sleep through all of this. It would make life a lot easier.

taylor swift

Sung to the tune of "Our Song" by Taylor Swift

I was lookin' at you, in your eyes so blue
as you start to poke my side
you crack a smile, make it all worth while
and pull me close 'til we collide

in your warm hug, I feel safe and snug
there's nowhere else I'd rather be
we stand there so long, everyone's all gone
and it really makes me see

it doesn't matter if we're right or wrong
we can still sum it up with a Taylor Swift song
she seems to know us better than we do
and we can't even deny it, cause it's way too true
no matter what we say
our story's told that way

thinkin' we were both right, we get in a fight
and it never seems to end
get too cross, screamin' "it's your loss!"
as I walk around the bend

I realize it won't work, cause you're bein' a jerk
so your friend takes me away
listen to Picture to Burn, realize it's my turn
I can't let this go astray

it doesn't matter if we're right or wrong
we can still sum it up with a Taylor Swift song
she seems to know us better than we do
and we can't even deny it, cause we know it's too true
missin' you more than I thought I could
she tells it like we should

and I hate every day that I push you away
cause I know the sun won't shine
but it's not how I act, and I know it's a fact
I like you better when you're mine

cause even if you're right and I'm wrong
we can still talk it over with a Taylor Swift song
we learn more about us every day
and I know that we'll always be this way
and if you ask me, I think that's okay

cause I was lookin' at you, in your eyes so blue
while your arm's wrapped 'round my side
you crack a smile, make it all worth while
cause this was worth the ride

I just find it amusing that it ended up being the tune to a Taylor Swift song. And how she's a country singer who wrote a song about another country singer [Tim McGraw], and here I am doing the same thing.

I won't normally write in italics, but it's just because the song was...straight?Normal? However you want to see it. Either way, there you go.